I am eight months into discovering my submissive self and I have really just begun learning the true meaning of being a submissive girl. I understand now that true submission is giving COMPLETE sexual control over to a Master, which goes beyond simply following orders. I realize now, that it is a state of mind in addition to a physical need. I have had an opportunity to experience a different style than what I am used to and I have thoroughly enjoyed myself and what I have learned from it. I have a completely different outlook on submission now and I am beginning to understand more and more each day of what it means to serve. It is more fulfilling than I imagined it to be and I have welcomed the high expectations.I hope that I will be able to post more detail soon, but, for now I can only say how it has felt and what I have learned. 
  

You Get What You Ask For

  I asked to learn more. I asked what it meant to be submissive. I asked to be shown and told different opinions and styles and I received what I asked for. Enough that I am now more nervous of going forward than I was before. However, what is breaking through the feelings of nervousness and fear is excitement and a pull towards a need for more. More dominance, more control a firm hand. I tremble at the thought of those things being placed upon me,but, I have a need for them.  Tasks, assignments, expectations, chats......are all different. The idea of what a sub should/should not be varies from person to person and that is confusing. Of course the idea of what a Master/Sir should be is thought of differently from one to the other also. I will sort it all out and find what works for me. This journey has been fun so far and I have been able to learn a lot about myself. Some things that I would never have imagined to be true.