I have been told to keep a sex diary for Master so that He can look back on the dates and see how long He has denied me an orgasm. As I was putting the events of the last month together on paper and in chronological order I went back and looked at how things had developed. I was amazed to see that I was so completely against submitting to anyone in the beginning, however, over time I could see where and why I had decided to move into that direction with Sir. I was not tricked, pushed or convinced to do anything. I was spoken to about fetishes I had and He experimented with me a bit. With each step a clear question was asked of me. Did I want to continue, stop or ask Him for anything that I may need? I never once was asked to provide or do anything I had not asked for (or even begged for). To be treated in this manner seems to natural. I am pleased to continue to move forward with Him. I have been learning many things about being submissive and some of my preconceived notions were very wrong and have since been corrected. Since my last blag I have manged to earn yet another punishment. I was made to clean my windows completely naked and in plain view of passer by's. I will learn quickly to watch my tone and mouth as they seem to be getting me into trouble. I have to teach myself not to question Sir when given an order or when I am asked to give Him an answer.
I have also been praised frequently for things that I have done to please Master. I have found that when He is pleased I am proud of myself. I have begun to feel a transition occur. One that is similar to the "changing of the guards". Control of my sexual life is being transferred to Him. Slowly, but, powerfully. I have given to Him everything that He has as far as my submission is concerned. I have not been asked or pushed into doing anything that I feel uncomfortable about. I have however had to do things I did not want to do, but, nothing outrageous. No naked pics were required within the first 24 hours. Cam has not been forced on me. Things have moved in the right direction at the perfect pace.
I am looking forward to the coming days/weeks with Him. Some of my restrictions/rules are listed below........
*I am on "no touch" right now. (of course it is due to my curtness with Master)
*I am required to email Master each time I wet my panties and I am to ask for His forgiveness
*I must share with Him any and all links to erotic stories,photos or videos that I find arousing (no matter how embarrassing they may be to me)
*I am to email Master and thank Him for His treatment of me
*I am required to mind my manners and tone at ALL times.
*I am to follow His orders at ALL times. I may express to Him how I feel, however, depending upon the circumstances it may be seen as being rude and Master will not tolerate rudeness.
* I am required to send him pics of myself while I am aroused and report to Him via email how I am feeling sexually.
These are just a few basic guidelines. Master is strict and firm,however, He is also kind and caring and I am very happy to have the chance to serve Him.
