Another Important Lesson

Another Important Lesson

Journal Entry | less than a minute ago

My Master/Daddy had returned home for the weekend (in the UK) and He had time to spend with me. :) He had assigned to me two tasks, both of which involved creating a video for Him. With it being a holiday weekend, the assignments would have to wait to be completed on Monday in the morning and Master was fine with that, although He ordered me not to touch myself at all until they were done(this is a common order from Him) and He had them. Here is where I made a huge mistake........
I completed one video and sent it and I was going to complete the second one the next day. I was having a real problem with not being able to touch myself .....it must have been a lapse in sanity,but, in the shower I broke my rules and too make it worse I had an orgasm.
I told Master what I had done and I could not completely understand why He reacted so strongly. He was very angry and said that I had disrespected Him and that He was wondering what I had even learned over the last ceveral months of training. I knew that I was wrong,but, I really thought He was overreacting a bit. Then, last night, I sat down and really read what He had said to me via email all day and how He explained (angrily and with a lot of exclamation points) what I had done and why it was wrong.
It was an ah-ha moment in that I finally realized that I had put my needs before His and THAT was what He was so angry about. I had not seen it that way, I had thought I simply broke a rule, but, I had not, I had disrespected Him and had done something quite serious. Needless to say I am still apologizing and awaiting my consequences.I have learned yet another very important lesson.