During this short journey of mine I have learned a lot. Some good, some not so good. Out of character does not even begin to describe my actions over the last few months. I would have never expected myself to have gone any further than lurking online, especially in a sexual way. But, because I stepped out of my comfort zone and tried something new, I am a much happier person.
The biggest thing I have learned is my obsession with being submissive. I had no idea how much I wanted to submit to a Master and then once I did, how strong of a daily craving it would become. I am by nature a very dominate person and so giving control to a Master is unbelievably hot. I crave the orders and the process of having my behavior shaped to please Him. Having a strong personality, it is a challenge for any Dom, but, the mistakes I make are genuine. I dont make them in order to receive punishment or to get attention.I want to be His perfect sub as much as He wants me to be. I have a quick tongue that gets me into trouble a lot and it is coupled with impulsiveness.
My Master has proven to have a strong hand and very capable of "keeping me in line". The relationship is new, but, I have learned valuable lessons early on. I have learned not to tease my Master. This will bring relentless teasing upon myself with no relief for a very long time. I have learned to always be forthcoming with information. The "he didn't ask so I wont tell" idea does not work well with Him. Pouting/Objecting makes no difference. Once He is set on something that is it,which I have realized is the hardest thing for me to accept. (Doing what I object to solely for His pleasure.) Cumming is a privilege that is granted to me. DO NOT cum without permission.
My Master is a dirty minded dream. I have learned that the kinkier/dirtier the more I like it. Being gagged with my own (dirty) panties is hot! Being made to cum multiple times without a break or being made to tease myself every hour on the hour (for a long day) with strict orders not to cum is also hot. Deep throating and gagging another favorite. Each session that He sets for us progresses further and further. I keep thinking he may run out of ideas, but, I am sure that this is just the tip of the iceberg.
I look forward to many more lessons and to sharing them with others. As they occur I will post and share.
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