It Has Been A While.............




It has been a while and many thing have happened since I last posted here. The first face to face meeting that I had went very well. Sir and I clicked and had an easy time talking with one another. We played a bit,but, not too much....it really was perfect. I did not have a problem falling into my submissive role with Him. Since then the tasks that HE has set for me to accomplish everyday have a new meaning for me. They seem more important now and His disappointment in any failure that I may have would upset me at a deeper level now.

I have increased the number of times I call Him during the day because I feel more comfortable now, even though I still become tongue tied when He makes any sexual comments during the course of our conversation. He has set tomorrow as our first play session together and I am certainly not ashamed to admit that I am nervous and terrified however, very excited. I cannot even put into words the vast amount of emotions that are going through my head and body right now. There are so many things that I could do wrong or I could completely displease Him. Of course I could also be face to face with all of my fantasies and realize I do not want to live them out in real time or I could get there and absolutely know that this is exactly what I have been dreaming about. It is a lot to imagine.

We are having lunch with a submissive friend of mine and Her Daddy prior to playing and I am hoping that I will be able to eat something. I know that I should eat something before we play.

I was not this nervous before our first meet and I am not sure why this time is effecting me so much more. I am going to try to relax and have fun and do my absolute best to please Him.