I am not one for pain , I have a low tolerance .....or at least I thought I did. Since I began learning more about my submissive self I have been very curious about how a flogger would feel across my back or ass or how badly does it really hurt to be paddled or spanked.I have seen numerous pictures of people after a good flogging or whipping and I have watched people being paddled in the past. It never really interested me at all. As a matter of fact. it was yet another limit I had on my long list of no's when I first began.
Fortunately for me, I have been lucky enough to have experienced some flogging and paddling recently. The intensity was not full on,however, even at the level it was, I was surprised with myself at how I reacted and felt during and after. I believe that a flogger, crop and paddle were used and I must say that with every strike I felt myself become more aroused and at one point I stopped feeling the strikes in a way until His use of me was over, of which, I believe I enjoyed much more because of His treatment of me and the spankings.
When He had used me to His content I looked at the marks left behind and shockingly I was very proud of them. I am still trying to understand why I enjoyed this and why I am craving more. On one hand I am glad that I am discovering something new,however, on the other hand I cannot help but wonder what kind of person does that make me??? That I enjoy being hurt? That I get off to being flogged?? I never thought it would EVER be something I would enjoy even in its least amount of intensity.
Now.....I need to find my tolerance level for pain.
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