Change, change, change......I really do not adapt to change very well, especially when it comes to a "changing of the guard", so to speak. I was the student in school who hated it when her teacher was out and a substitute was present. I never felt as though the substitute teacher did things the same way and it bothered me. One of my quirks, I suppose.
Master is still away and we are still thinking that it may be December before He returns. In the meantime, He has agreed to allow a Dom, who is now my Sir, to have control of my orgasms and submission . The transition from one to the other has really not been as difficult as I thought it would be. Their philosophies about discipline and a submissive's place are the same although, I have noticed that Sir does not have the "Daddy" component in His personality as Master does. I am glad though,because it gives me an opportunity to be trained in a different manner which I believe will broaden my horizons. This transition is the easier of the two.
The second transition that I find myself faced with is the move from on-line to real life. Not as easy as becoming acclimated to a new Sir. My Sir is local and my Master has said that it is a good thing and that He believes it would be very beneficial for me to meet with Sir eventually and have real life experiences. I know that He is right. When I first began my journey, I had to become comfortable within myself to type sexual things that I felt or wanted to say to another person and now I have no problem with typing anything really. Sir has had me speak with Him on the phone and just as I had to become used to typing, I am having to become used to actually saying the sexual words out loud to Him. It is almost like starting over. Although I was really nervous the first time Sir had me call Him,I am glad we spoke. I am becoming more comfortable and my first orgasm via the phone was amazing. I loved begging Him for release and hearing myself say what He was ordering me to say.
Sir has me on a daily schedule that consists of tasks that are intended to remind me of my place, to teach me how to serve Him and of course, to pleasure and amuse Him. Some of the tasks I have done before and some I am not happy about having to do, but, that is part of His pleasure......making me do things I do not want to do. Nothing on my schedule is beyond my capabilities or pushes any hard limits and so I must find a way to get them done for Him. I begin tomorrow and I hope that I will be able to please Him and make my Master very proud of me.
I will blog about the tasks as I complete them for the first time.
BT
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